Me again...

So, it's been a few months. I could blame the lack of creative output down to sickness. We have had a LOT of sickness in this house, and it does take it's toll - especially on the energy levels.

But also, if I'm being honest, working for and resigning from Creative Northland has really killed my creative ambitions. I was able to take a good hard look at the ugly side of creative industries. I saw a lot of selfishness, irresponsibility, manipulation, posturing, laziness, spite and malicious behavior. Unfortunately, the sad truth about freedom and subjective expression is that our innate human darkness can fester unchecked.

My response? Get the hell out.

I don't like giving up or backing away from a fight, but I just couldn't deal with it. I have to admit, I'm a little disappointed about that. I've always thought of myself as someone who could stand for truth and goodness in the midst of the alternative. I just couldn't see anything other than lose-lose scenarios around me.

Now what?

I struggle to create in isolation. I still need to be apart of a creative community. I need others who, imperfect though we may be, are committed to promoting truth and beauty in our common human experience. I don't want to lose faith in an entire sector of society - especially when I count myself among them.

Hopefully there will be some more post of interest in this blog over the coming weeks.